dear diary I am having a very mentally dark day. meditation was hard and didn’t quite cut it. I took medication I need alone time I will be ok but no I’m not ok today. And I guess that’s ok. here’s to hoping a hot bath a hot tea some tv and half a xanny help my sanity. 亲爱的日记，我度过了精神上非常黑暗的一天。 冥想是很难的，而且也不太适合。我吃了药，我需要独处的时间，我会好起来的，但我今天不舒服。我想这很好。希望洗个热水澡，喝杯热茶，看会电视，再吃半杯桑尼，这对我的神志有所帮助。